i wrote a long long journel to God last night.
and i found him when i seek him last night.
i felt his presence.
that led me to be more aware that God is real.
He is real in my life.
He is wonderful in many many ways in my life.
i would never regret committing my life to him.

i happy that i got a notebk.
too happy to do my holiday homework.
ah!!!

counting down later with my mum at chimes!!
hope that there will be seats for us like 6 yrs ago.
6 yrs ago, we spent our 31st dec there at chimes.
and i remembered clearly that i drank my fav fruit punch.
hehe. going there again later.
hope we'll have wonderful time!!

sound retreat at sentosa today!
gdness me.
i didn't expect myself to be tan at all.
it has been raining like tap water for the pass few days.
seriously, i'm really thankful that God bless us with
fruitful time and good weather.
mr. sun was out today and i became a roasted chicken.
since my team was named the chicken team.
and banana the other.
i guess the members on the other teams were goreng pisang?
hehe.
jus crap talk.
honestly, i think we got to know one another
a little bit more today at the retreat and i've
met people in MM and lights whom i've never met before.
but i feel that we still a have a lot of room for us to grow closer.
well.... we will get to bond together even more as time goes by.
i pray the God will bond us together so that we can work better
together to serve God and his people.
yeah!
i believe we will grow a lot more in the year to come and that
we will be one strong team!

I can hear my heartbeat in my ears.
gdness.
i just shared a bottle of bacari with my mum
and my face is super flushed.
it only contain 4% of alcohol.
i really can't hold my liquor well.
i feel really warm.

went to catch a movie today with mila n sandy.
Charlotte's web.
the sorry is super ncie la.
very very touching.
i want to read the book!
it's very sad man.
i love the show!!
i'll rate it a 10/10!

ok, i tink i better go shower now.

the first hr of christmas 2006 has passed.
and i spent the hr showering, watching tv,
chatting with my mum and grandma.
i guess my christmas isn't going to be really exciting.
pretty depressing for me since i've been hoping for
a wonderful christmas.
my mum is going to work tmr.
and i don't know what am i going to do.
maybe i'll ask someone out.
but i'm definitely having dinner with my family.
i believe God will give me a new understanding for
christmas this year and not jus the story of nativity.
i just want to expreience the love of God deeper.

central chalet today!!
well..... it was nto bad.
i had funny eating all the food while
preparing sandwiches for the grp.
anyway, the place was rather desserted and quiet.
But i managed to find the place together with Shijie.
the area was super dark when sze min and i wanted to go home.
fortunately we got a cab. and the taxi fair jus cost my mum a bomb
when i went to pick up my mum from her
working place while i went home.
the food at the chalet was pretty good!
Mila and I simply love the cheese prawns.
and the wierd thing is, i love the cheese more than the prawns.
hehe.
but the prawns are nice too.
Got to know xuanz's fren from CJ.
his name is Linton.
unique name right?
i thought so too.
and i thought it sounds like Clinton.
also got to meet a new fren. but i forgot her name.
sorry man.

i went to carrefour to buy choco as christmas
presents for my parents today too.
actually i only intend to write them cards this year.
But when my mum asked me if i prepared anything
for my dad, i told her i didnt'want to tell her and she'll know
about it tmr on christmas.
and after a second thought, i went to buy 2 boxes of choco for them.
and u know what my parents got for me for christmas?
they got a pair of earings for me.
and i love it!!!
i love their taste!
it suits me a lot.
u all can get a look when i wear them.
thank God for my parents!
not only thank God for them for the pair of earings,
but thanking them for doting on me.
i think i'm very very much loved by them.

oh man.
i'm disappointed.
how come my contact didn't want to commit his life to God.
i believe he value his studies more than God.
but it's natural, since he's new.
but i'm still disappointed.
thank God that at least he believe in God.
i think as he join us more frequently, he'll
experience the love of God more in our midst.
and one day, he'll love God jus as we do!

i was so angry and fustrated with my mum just now.
my mum doesn't allow me to stay over night in central chalet tmr!!
i got so upset that i don't even feel like going anymore.
now i'm not angry with my mum anymore.
jus feeling sad now.
i understand why my mum doesn't allow me to stay over at my frens'
houses or chalet.
she thinks that a girl shouldn't stay at other people houses.
moreover our chalet tmr is at changi and she had heard many ghost stories
about changi. therefore, she doesn't allow me to go.
but i'm upset that people can have fun while i cannot.
i want to enjoy with my frens.
i know that it's common for parents to forbid their childern from going
somewhere or do something. But i'm so used to the freedom that my
mum gives me that i find her actions ridiculous when she tries to
restrict me.
i know it's no big deal that my mum doesn't allow me to stay over,
but i'm jus upset.

i wanna thank everyone who gave me gifts and christmas cards.
thanks for all ur affirmation and i'll take up the challenges that
you've given me. i will definitely do my best in serving the Lord.
thanks everyone.

my passion is dying.
i spoke to God about it last night
and i felt better after confiding in God.
i still want to do God's work,
i still want to follow Jesus,
but the passion is not there.
i guess i got to grow.

After reading mila's blog about
camp and last week's service,
i'm deeply encourage by her and
i thank God for her.
perhaps God uses her to build my passion again.
mila is jus so excited and kingdom-minded.
i just can't help it but to affirm her.

went to evax to the new sec ones next year today in sch.
result wasn't very gd.
perhaps it's also that i wasn't giving my best.
i wasn't in a very clear-minded condition.
i was tired.
i need to repent man.
God deserves our best and we need to have
the spirit of excellence.
i hope i won't be so sleepy tmr.

went to winnie's house after lunch.
xuanting and mila was baking.....
er.... i don't know what it's called.
cheese biscuits perhaps?
i was reading my book which i had borrowed
form the library today.
puiwah was watching her fav doramon cartoon,
while sherlyn was doing.....................
doing what? i don't know.
i was too focus on my book.
i guess she was slacking ard or helping out with the
baking of cheese biscuits.
i had fun preparing the cheese man.
i made it into small strips of cheese.
and it's really funny. the cheese taste better when it's in
small strips, not when it's in a big block.
maybe it taste nicer cause my effort for preparing it was in it.
haha.
jus the ego in me.
oh ,sandy was helping out too!

xuanz, sandy and mila kept complaining that they have a lot
of card to write but they don't have enought time to write them.
pity them.
they got to stay up late to do it.
but i think it'll be worth it, cause it's for the people in the kingdom.
i myself have some cards that are unwritten too.
and i'm really lazy to write them.
got to crack my brain for the contents of the cards.
sigh....
off i go now to crack my brain.

this news really broke my heart.
almost 70% of the children in UK don't know the origin of Christmas!!!
gdness me!!
we must really share the gospal man.
Christmas is not about santa claus!!!!
It's about the birth of my Lord, Jesus Christ.
that's why it's called Christmas!
hey brothers and sisters out there,
don't keep it to yourself!
go and share it to others!!

met winnie this morning.
and she shared with me the struggles that she's having
and the area that she wants to have breakthrough in.
I really want to pray for this leader of mine and
i believe that God can really help her to have breakthrough in this area.
God has his own timing and i believe as long as we do our part,
obey him, he will never shortchange us.

we shared about the spiritual gifts that we want too.
currently i want the gift of intercession
and i want the gift of pastoral and evangelist too!
i'm really greedy.
i want almost everything.
pastor jeff told us not to be courteous with God.
jus ask for what we want.
but we can't have everything or else, we can jus do everything on
our own and we don't need others to hold the other roles.
we can jus run the entire church by ourselves if we have all the gifts.
so, for now, i'll jus develope my current gifts from God and
ask for the gift of intercession after i have manage the gifts i have well enough.
then after that i shall move on!
hehe.
but something winnie said today make me wonder about it too.
can we actually work for what we want?
can i work for the gift of intercession?
but a gift is a gift, we can't work for it right?
i think i will try to find this out soon.
and i'll tell u all the answer.
;)

i was on duty for both 1st n 2nd service yesterday.
and i screwed the praise and worship up.
the music was too loud and i think it wasn't ministering enough.
but thank God many people came to know Him.

after service and dinner with my grp,
mila, shiyou and I went to coffee bean at center pt
to have just a small talk.
the time we shared together was super fruitful man.
we shared about our struggles, our experiences with God
and many other stuff.
i was very encouraged by the testimonies that shiyou shared.
really thank God for her.
I sincerly wants to hear God's voice,
but last night i realise that i cannot rush things.
I have to slowly build relationship with my lovely God
who longs to communicate with us.
and i want to have breakthrough in this area by this year!

oh man.
i didn't do well for the test God put me into today.
in fact i did so horribily that i felt super guilty about it.
when i went back, i realise Gad has already sent someone else to do it.
now i know where i stand.
I wanted to receive God's forgiveness by faith
and remove the guilt in my heart at that time.
and after praying, repenting, i felt a lot better.

ok. i share one gospal to one of my fren online today.
His responses really amuses me and eventhough
he went offline before i ask him if he wants to convert,
i'm very encouraged that he didn't reject me.
in kept correcting my english and commented on my sharing.
i'm jus so thankful for him.
he helped me to improve a lot.
thank God for him!

meeting my grp and winnie tmr!
so excited to meet them!
i'm going to share my story to them man.
haha.
after that going for rehearsal for christmas!!!
yeah!!!
i'm going to serve the Lord with the best that i have!
i'm excited for everything about the kingdom!

oh God
as i look upon the stars
I see the greatness of you Lord
and I know that you are good.
amazement overwhelmed me
and I know that there is no God like you.

Camp was really short.
I felt that we didn't have enough time together
and we need the word of God more.
but eventhough it's short, I'm convicted of many things.
Pastor David Chen from Hope Bangkok came over and speak
during the camp and I was very blessed by him.
His testimonies gave me an assurance that we can all
suceed in God's work simply because we are doing his work.
Shirley also gave me a new insight to praying for the sick.
In general, i met God in the camp and my passion was ignited again.
I'm really excited to reach our 1000 goal and become a testimony to
the rest of the hope churches all over the world.
personally, i want to bring mroe than just one person into the kingdom
and i know that God will bring all of us through this and let us experience
him everyday of our lives.

hey mila! i'll reply ur tag here.
what camp packing list are you talking about?
we have packing list ah?

oh man,
i wonder how much excitement is stored up inside me man.
i can't wait for camp to come.
i want to see so much more things happenning in my life,
in my grp and in my ministry.
oh God, i want more!!!

i've been very busy these days.
but i love what i'm doing.
i love it.
simply love it.

i'm much more refreshed now.
hehe.
I'm trying to start on my chemistry homework.
and it sucks.
i forgot all my theories alr.
oh God.
I need help.

i seriously need tuition for my sciences.
they are horrendous.
i better go and look for tuition soon.

amelia coming over tmr to do hw.
hehe. pretty excited.
going to meet her after so long.
great man!

ok.
i finally got it.
sorry guys.
really sorry.
sigh.........
this blog is finally set up.
it's the way i want it to be.
simple and full of christmas atmosphere.
i still need to add some stuff here and there.

i'm still sick.
ok.
i want to sleep alr.
oh man.

x

amelia koh.
amelia tay.
chen xiang.
christabel.
joseph lin.
joyce.
mila.
nicole.
nicolina.
p.s glenn.
puiwah.
sandy.
shiyou.
weiling.
winnie.


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