hai....
i just went to shit in the toilet bowl my grandma had jus washed.
when i saw that the toilet bowl was so clean,
i didn't want to do my business there.
but too bad, the nature has been calling upon me repeatedly
since a few hours ago.
bo bian.... have to dirty the toilet bowl.
wasted my grandmother's effort...

i have a lot of friendship problems nowadays.
actually, not a lot. there's only one.
andi can't solve it.
my heart attitude has cause me to be so possesive and
i don't put my joy in th Lord.
so i'm veyr much affected by these trival things.
when will i ever get this into my heart and not my brain.
it's alr in my head but i can't seem to get it into my heart.
when will i every grow to where i want to be?

well.... my week was alright.
some bumps here and there, but i'm okay.
not overstressed. but i think i still need to work a lot on
my discipline. i really suck at it.
a slacked a lot on the day before my physics test.
regret it man. wasted so much of my time.
so if i don't do well, i deserved it.
i'll still feel very depressed as i have
disapointed myself and others.
anyway, tues night i was so exhausted that i sleep at 8 plus.
i slept before my mum came home.
when i woke up it's alr time to go to sch.
so i didn't get to talk to me my mum at all.
feel somewhat bad about it.
however i still feel lathagic in sch on wed.
hai.... so much for sleeping early.
i didn't spend a lot of time on QT this week.
only did it on two of the days. but i'm glad that
i talked to God about many things in the nights
before i sleep.
the Lord is my comfort.

today's CME presentation sucks for me.
i admit i didn't prepare well.
and i couldn't speak very fluently cause
i was a little stressed out. so many things
were going through my mind.
i do't think i did well.
anyway, i'm relieve that i can throw away my script now.
really detest presentations.

suppose to meet jiayi today.
but it was postponed.
gd thing we didn't meet cause i ended sch late.
we had a seminar on how to calculate
the square of a 2 digit no. very quickly.
and also to multiply 2 digit no.s together
in a simpler way. it's really cool to see
how the indian guy is able to arrive at the
answers of our questions accurately and
promptly. it's really cool. i'll show it to
some of you if u ask me to. hehe. i received
a song from jiayi today.
it's really gd.


The answer is you.

There´s a world of difference when faith is in a heart
It stands out like sunlight
Life becomes so dark
And when those around me ask me why
I dare to dream
Or why I love or why sing

My answer is You
My answer is You
You´re the hope that my heart is holding on to
Skeptics won´t understand
Ít´s strange from the world´s point of view
My answer is You

They might find it incredible to belive what I can´t see
They might think it´s foolish
Or even say it´s weak
I want to live my life so differently because of faith
If it causes them to question, for me to say

My answer is You
My answer is You
You´re the hope that my heart is holding on to
Skeptics won´t understand
Ít´s strange from the world´s point of view
My answer is You

You´re the reason I´m alive
For every good thing in my life
My answer is You
My answer is You
You´re the hope that my heart is holding on to
Skeptics won´t understand
It´s strange from the world´s point of view
But my answer is plain and it´s simple, Lord
My answer is You .

if u are going to look at the pic with this view,
you are going to be a depressed freak.
don't you know that everyone is different and
nobody can meet up to all your expectations?
if u are so selfish and all u care about is yourself,
u are not going to feel gd when people don't treat u
the way u want them to.
You aren't going to be joyful with this insecurity.
though u have improved in controlling your
emotion and keeping them in check, you're still lacking
in selfcontrol. trying to change yourself merely by the
will of your own isn;t going last long for u.
don't u understand u can't do it on your own?
if u don;t depend on God, u aren't going to stay in that
favourable situation permanently.
really, let God change you.

i'll update about my birthday first.
haha.
the best part of my special day was when
my caregroup gave me a surprise birthday.
i somehow expected it but i wasn't sure of it.
nevermind.
i got a choco cake from them. hehe.
so swee pls.
but in the end i can't finish it.
i got a pack of white choco from mila which she bought
from marks n spencer.
i've been eating so much choco lately.
fat to the max alr.
but i really appreciate it.
thank you mila.
and for texing me too.
and i got a jewellry box from puiwah too.
it's super useful to me.
if u have come to my room before, u wld realise that
my room is really messy.
so the box is very useful for me.
Thank you all for ur love for me.

got a shocking news today.
pui wah became my shepherd.
my gdness.
i really cannot accept it.
but i know i'm going to benifit.
i know i'm going to grow.
thank you God.
his plan are amazing.
my thoughts are higher than ur thoughts,
so are my ways higher than your ways.

Farewell part for sany and claire after srvice.
i really can't bear to leave them.
they are transfering to another grp which is an
unfamiliar anvironment for them.
shall not say mucha bout what happened
during the party.
hope they'll cope well in the new grp and sch.

so far my birthday isn't very special or whatever.
jus a normal day to me.
maybe a little worse than normal.
but i woul i like thank all those who texted me.

Jaslyn- thanks for ur cute message! and don't try to act blur la!
As if u don't know i'm 16.
Winnie- thanks for ur affirmation and encouragement.
of course ur best wishes too!
Shiyou- thank you for taking time and money to sms me
all the way from melborne!! really appreciate your
words of blessings.
Jiayi- you're the only one who sms me a verse! thanks for ur reminder
and well wishes.
Sandy- a big thank you for ur encouragement!!! i'll cling unto God!

not as if every one of them would read this. but i just want to say a word of
appreciation. yeah, gd day everyone!

Times of refreshing

Times of refreshing
Here in your presence
No greater blessing
Than being with you
My soul is restored
My mind is renewed
There's no greater joy Lord
Than being with you.

It has been so long since i cried during worship.
many times i'm so distracted with other things
that i can't focus on God. and when i'm on duty,
i do worship and praise God but i can't do that for long.
i have to give my best effort in bringing out gd sound.
after doing quiet time with the connect booklet,
the worship time i spend has really improved in quality
and when i do certain things, i'm more concious of God's presence.
i'm really glad that every time i do something that makes God smile,
i'm worship God. i'm really really REALLY elated that I have the
privilege to worship God and make him happy.

i don't know why but sandy has this problem with me saying
the word zhao. she wants me to say super instead.
Super is so boring la pls. ok, not like zhao is very
interesting but at least it's not as common.
Sandy says she jus doesn;t like that chinese word but,
whatever, i don't like super.
and i'm not going to use damn unless i accidentally slipped
out of my mouth.
haha.
may the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart,
be pleasing to you, pleasing to you, my God.
Psalm 19

YEAH! I'M GOING TO MEET ERINA ON TUESDAY!!
can u believe it? i'm going to meet my sheep!
she is so willing!!! hahaha. zhao happy now.
God is good to me. at least she's willing to meet me.
hehehe.
pray that i can speak to her fluently.
woo! quite worried and excited about it!

let me tell u people another gd thing that happened to me!!
my gdness.
i'm so touched by my cousins.
i teach both my pri-2 cousins mathematics and they just
wrote and drew me a card each.
i'm so gan dong man.
eventhough the cards are nto very well draw and
decorated, i appreciate their effort.
it's always very heartening to know that what u have
done has made an impact on others when they give u
a word of thanks.
knowing that ur work has not gone to waste makes u feel gd
but we got to know that eventhough ppl don't appreciate us,
we still got to serve God though people.
and serve them like kings.(quote from p.s Ben)
cause when u serve people, u serve God!
even if ppl don't appreciate you, God knows what u have done
and God will bless you.

alright, i still have tons of work to do. cya people!

wooo.....
holiday was not bad!
cause i didn't alot of my work.
haha. i relax a lot.
but i think i'm going to suffer when school reopens.
well...... i'll try my best to cope with my work.

monday went out with sandy and puiwah to buy shoes.
i bought a new pair of nike shoes and i'm
very happy with it.
hehe.
it's in my fav color! brown!

i was suppose to have dinner with joseph,
fellow sound member in hope, but i
forgot about it. so sorry abt it man!
in the end we don't have enough time to eat
before rehearsal and we got to go out and
da bao our food. mac was not bad....
eventhough im quite sick of it.

wed is the most exhuating day!!
i got to wake up at 7.30 to sell flags.
and we walk through places like, chinatown,
Raffles place and city hall to sell as much coins as possible.
and at the end of day, i had a blister on my little toe.
sounds a bit pathetic, but, ya. It jus turns out to be like that.
when my shifts ends ar 1.30, i went to have lunch and
went for metamorphosis after that!
eventhough it was quite stressful, for me, it was fun.
and i screwed up the concert. everything sound quite wrong.
the instruments are like........... ok, i just don't like the sound i mixed.
and then after meta,my cg went to marina bay to eat steamboat!!!
hahaha. so fun please.
we baptised the prawns before we cooked them so that they
can go to heaven after they are dead.
haha. what rubbish!
nonethelss,it's really enjoyable.
and yes, we cook the prawns alive.
i thought we were quite cruel at first, but then i gt over
it after a while. hehe.

well.... i'm going to sentosa to suntan with amelia now!
see ya ard!

i'm so elated. i'm delirously happy for my mixing of sound today.
(Practising the use of my vocab...)
yes, i forgot about a number of things.
yes, i wasn't very familiar with the songs sequences.
but i'm so please with myself.
i don't know if i'm anointed or what,
i'm jus glad that the time i had given had not been wasted.
and i just want to thank God for answering my prayer.
i wanted to do well for mixing today, and God just blessed me.
actually i don't really know what i had done well,
but i'm jus very satisfied with myself.

Growth point- to keep to a particular task in a period of time.
in other words, i want to have a breakthrough in
self control in the way i spend my time.
do what i need before i do what i want.
that is the kind of maturity i want to have in me.
Not to be distracted by things that are unrelated to what i am doing.
That's my goal.

i haven;t really got into the holiday mood yet.
i guess that's why i feel like doing my holiday homework.
i am so caught up with stuff that needs to be done that
the fact that i can relax during this period of time
slipped my mind. i thank God for the week which i can
catch up with my work and my relax myself.
God is really good to me.
He comforted me when i was stress over my results,
he gave me a gd grade for my literature this term which
is usally the subject i am weak in.
He helped me wit my studies and i failed less than 3 sub
this term which is a very gd thing to me.
cause a lot of ppl did badly.
so, i didn;t really disappoint my mum that much and
i am still able to commit my time to the church!
He helped my with my work throughout the week too!
i managed to finish most of my work evernthough
i don't have much time to do it. God gave me ample time
to do the things i need.
Thank God for everything.

Prayer list:
- Amelia Koh who's sick.
- Amelia Tay who's worried over exams results.
- Sze min who's always busy with CCA and cause to be tired out.
- My own sound skills.
- My desire to change people's life.
- breakthoughs during this period.

wow!! wonderful and exhausting week!
out of the 5 nights, 4 of them are taken up by sound.
hehe. eventhough it's tiring, i'm just so glad that i can serve.
monday i had cable making session. Just learn how to make cable.
and it's so tedious! i too so long just to finish making one cable.
tueday i had coperate prayer meeting rehearsal. it was good
cause i get to practise my skills. thurs was sport day!!
well... didn't have a lot of fun cheering and
tolley wasn't the last this year!!!!
Hahaha, tolley has a break through.
it's pretty saddening that tolley didn't get 1st in cheer leading.
and i had hair spray on my hair!
after that Weiling and i went to kbox!!
haha. and sang our lungs out.
we kept singing fahrenheit's songs and it sounds
so wierd when we sing out of tune. hehe.
it was really a great opportunity for both of us to
catch up with each other a bit since we haven't been
communicating much these days.
caregroup came up next!!
i was in charge of sharing, together with angelina.
sharing wasn't that exciting.
most of us shared about how God blesses us in our studies.
it's ok, we'll have more things to we share the next time round.
i was so tired on friday as i had afternoon naps
every day of the week except thurs. so i had to really
persude myself out my bed on friday morning to go to sch.
worse still, it was the last day of sch for this week before
we get our holidays. really had a hard time getting out of bed.
and we had coperate prayer meeting last night.
i couldn;t concertrate on what we were praying at all.
i don't know why but my mind jus kept drifting away from
what i was focusing on.
so in the end, i gave up praying. i jus observe people and
how the people of touch center mix the sound.
however, i had a great time praise and worshipping God.
really thank God for that. and wnna thank God for
refreshig me with all the prophesies yesterday.
and i'm on duty today again!!
hehe. pray that i will be anointed!!
hehe. gd day people.

i'm really tired to the max today.
after giving tuition to my cousin, i went to bed immediately.
and i've just woke up and had my shower.
feeling rather refreshed now.
even when i was coaching my cousin, i felt like so sleepy.
i was late for service today as i had to do some printing for my cg
and in the end i forgot to bring the entire stack of papers.
so fustrating man!
gd thing i stay nearby and i could go home and get it.
but it really drain the energy out of me.
i thank God for the opportunity to serve him and that
i could give my best to him.
my shepherd, Winnie, asked me why i want to stay in church and serve God.
my answer was that like would be meaningless and
aimless if i don't serve. eventhough i'm tired at times, i feel fulfilled.
by studying, chilling out with frens and living a crappy life won't
give me a purpose and make me feel fulfilled.
given the little amount of time i had to think of my answer to reply winnie,
i forgot abt the other impt pt. of why i want to serve God.
i want to serve God cause God is good. he is always good to me.
he blesses me with many things and in times of need, he is there for me.
i want to serve him cause he loves me and i love him.
(of course not as much as he does!)

I will boast in the Lord my God.
I will boast in the one who's worthy.

going to semarkau land fill was fun today!!
took many photos but not with my cam. i had forgotten to bring my cam today and i don't like using my hp cam. so in the end i didn't tk a lot of pic with my hp. i love looking at natural landscape and when i was there, i can't help but look out to the sea and up to the sky and admire God's work.



today's trip is really enjoyable for me. and, oh, the landfill is not smelly at all! haha. cause it's not a dumping ground. they actually get rid of the sea water and fill the incinerated refuse and ash into the space, making land out of rubbish!! it's really amusing for me to know that. smart s'pore! hehe.

feeling fulfilled. cause i'm serving God.
serving God is a privilege. take joy in it.

i really wish to be able to blog more frequently but i'm always short of time.
alright,here's my week!!

had caregrp on tues!!
we took the caregroup madness photo and all of us look so cute except me.
we all tied our hair up and we laugh ourselves into fits when we looked at each other.
but there's isn;t enough rubber bands for everyone so i end up clipping my hair.
and i look like a crazy mad woman.
Nicole said this " mellisa you don't anyhow run okay? i called the woodbridge alr. they are coming now."
my gdness, nicole is a joker man.
anyway, i can't post the pics took up here as we are not suppose to show anyone yet.
hehe. when it's time, i'll post it up and u can have a gd laugh.
i had to leave cg early that day cause i need t go for corperate prayer meet rehearsal
and i left cg after we took the photos. too bad i can't celebrate hannah's and jing er's
spiritual birthday with all of them.

i watched hana kimi episode 14 on youtube this monday!
it's was alright. not very eventful in this partcular epi
but the quan, the main lead, was so sweet! hehe.
cant wait for epi 15 man. it's going to be the last episode and
i hope that it will not be super stupid ending which is dangling
no where. and i hope that there will be hana kimi 2!!
hehe.

got back 2 test paper today.
physics and social studies.
we jus had physics test ytd and we got back our paper today!!
ms Ng and mr Ng is superb man!
mark so fast. don't know how they do it. a lot of hard work must have been involved.
not like Mr Lee. take more than 3 weeks to mark our scripts.
and in the end i failed my SS.
hai.... i thought i would be alright for this test.
oh well..... i jus got to improve.
my physics was ok. but i'm not satisfied cause it isn't
a very diffcult paper. hai.... i want a distinction!!!

we are going to the land fill tmr!!!
gdness. i wonder how would it be like.
this yr's learning journey seems interesting.
it's a privilege to be there and i think it would be a very gd experience!
hehe. hope i can take some gd photos tmr.

i'm going to cut my hair tmr!!!
pray that the hair dresser will cut properly.
hehe.

x

amelia koh.
amelia tay.
chen xiang.
christabel.
joseph lin.
joyce.
mila.
nicole.
nicolina.
p.s glenn.
puiwah.
sandy.
shiyou.
weiling.
winnie.


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