sound was super texing for service today.
i have to change the settings for the 5 different
bands in time span of few minutes and i was
very nevous before the first service.
and i made a few mistakes here and there in both of the services.
it's always the same type of mistakes and i can't
seem to have a breakthrough in thoes area for quite some time already.
so irritating man.
my fellow sound man mixing of Shirley's voice when she sang "who am i"
in the 2nd service was really well done. at least to me la.
there was this live feeling in her voice which sounds rather pleasant to me.
anyway, 1st service was quite screwed up during the band competition
but we still managed to carry on with the rest of the program till semon.
I thank God for bringing us through although i was rather panicky and anxious when
all the problems came up.
learning point: - stay calm inside when there are problems and think of what to do.
- set attitude right when things goes wrg
- stay super alert- think of what's next when we're concentrating
on certain things.
ok, i shall fly off now. night people.

How I love you

Here i stand
for you my heart is still
wanting just to be with you
waiting here long for your voice to speak
touch me now
it's ur face i seek

how my soul longs for you
to be with you
adore you
nothing more i want to do
than to sing to you

Jesus i'm in love with you
speak to me
whispher your words of truth
take my heart
won't me new
Jesus how i love you
how i love you

on my knees
for you i lay my life
giving all a living sacrifise
take my life
all that i long to be
set apart only for you my king

yeah!! Ex3 service this week!!
too bad i can't invite people this week
cause i'm on duty for sound.
we're really putting a lot of effort in this man.
a total of 10 songs for me to listen.
it will be super fun for me!
ytd was the rehearsal for the 4 bands and
some of the leaders were so stressed.
but overall, it was good.
thank God for that.
rehearsal for praise and worship tmr!!
getting quite excited for it but i'm afraid my mum
won't be happy about it.
she wants me to spend more time of my studies.
really irritated with the problem.

i was so pissed when everyone started cutting
queue when i was queuing for food during recess.
really cannot stand it.
i waited 15 min when i could have jus bought my
food in 5 mins. pissed to the max.

express yourself.

first time going for physics tuition.
haha, the old teacher is not bad.
the gd thing is that there's plenty of
questions for us to do.
and the person serve drinks too!
haha.
first time i see ppl serving drinks to the
students.
anyway, tiring day today.
this morning all of us were so tired that
we didn't go and evax. we went to rest instead.
pray that tmr we will be refeshed.
thank God none of my homework is due tmr.
hehe. at least i have some time to do things
that are not related to my textbooks.
it's time to give mroe care to my spiritual life.

oh man.
i want to thank God for so many things today.
my cousins isn't coming and i have more time to rest
as i don't have to give tuition to my cousins.
thank God for that.
i woke up this morning and my throat wasn't as sore as
yesterday. my running nose stopped as well.
just that my nose is blocked terribily now.
really grateful for that.
a big thank you for those who prayed for me.
hope i'll fully recover as soon as possible.

went to taka after luching with my caregroup.
while walking back to nexus, there were people
giving out balloons on both sides of Orchard.
it reminded me of the time when i was a kid.
whenever i see balloons, i woudn't stop bugging my
mother until i get it. now i would't even want a
balloon near me.
i saw a little girl eyeing at the balloons the lady was
grasping and it brought me to think about my desire
for God's work and for God. these 2 weeks, i didn't have the real
desire to evax and to give in my all.
i'm just not in the mood.
but when i saw the girl's eyes, i saw the desire, the longing
for what is just in front of her.
i want to have that look in me as well.
i wish i have it. and have it with me forever.

i did someting terribily wrong today.
i showed my displeasure.
it was foolish of me.
not only that it didn't help with the situation,
i hurt others as well, provided they realise it.
seriously, i need to love people more.
like what sandy said today, it's easier to
love people you don't really know.
i agree with her and i'm having a hard time trying to
control what i feel towards certain people and
certain things.
i am really impatient to see countless of breakthrough
in my life. well... perhaps God let me give tuition
to my primary 2- cousins to let me learn to have
patience.
i have yet to apologise to the people cause of my pride.
it's another area which i have to grow in as well.
really want to change from the inside out.

My Greatest Love Is You
Every new day your glory unfold
filling my eyes with your treasures untold
the beauty of holiness brings worship anew
my greatest love is you

call me deeper
into your grace
the river that flows from the holy place
wash over me
cleansing me through
my greatest love is you.

it's weekend again!!
pretty happy.
but there's a lot of work.
and i'm sick.
my throat is really a torture
and i have blew my nose for the hundredth time already.
soon and very soon, i'll visit the doctor soon if
i don't take care of my body well.

physics is a no play subject man.
seriously need a lot of practise and hardwork.
i pray that i will do well man.
although i'm still doing pure,
they say my results will be monitored.
well, got to walk on thin ice.

tmr is service!!!
so excited!!!
oh man. i forgot to call somebody and
it's already so late.
gdness me.
i slept still 9 plus almost ten then i wake up.
eventhough i'm rested, my nose and throat
are still killng me.

thanks abigail for sending me all the Il divo's songs!!
man. their songs are so memerising please!!
super relaxing.
thank God for her.
ok, got to do my work now.
see you people.

i've been slacking at lot spiritually
and i need to have the desire to share
God's word again. i don't want to just focus
on my sch work. it's hard. but somehow
i've got to do it.
it always felt gd to pray sincerly to God and
journaling to God and i pray that i will have
more time in doing that.

like what puiwah had told me,
it doesn't seems that there is a lot of work.
but when we actually got down to it,
we have problem with completing our work.
we got to fully uterlise our time.
time management has always been a problem
for me. i have yet to see a breakthough in this area.

peer tutoring was quite a mess at the beginnng.
a few of my classmates and i was in a separate
chemistry class with my original class.
and they don't have enogh wrksheet for us and so we
were waiting for instructions and worksheets to come.
we jus laze ard the class.
it was pretty irritating for me as we can't use the time to do our
worksheets and it means that we have to finish later than the rest.
but gd thing most of us finished in time.

well, i got to to rush my geography project now.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDY!!!! (in advance)

It has been raining so heavily that the stairway i bypass
today at orchard looks like a man-made water fountain.
I like raining days when i'm indoors but when i have to
keep going out to tend to some matters, i'm not fond of it.
especially if it's a heavy downpour.
come to think of it, i'm actually quite ungrateful.
i don't like weather that are too hot either.
oh man, i'm definitely difficult to please.
this phase came into my mind as i type.
" this is the day that the Lord has made,
let us rejoice and be glad in it."
well.... i got to think this way.
a heavy rain is better than water flooding up to my waist and
a hot day in s'pore is better than a day in the desert.

went for music practise today. well.... yesterday.
we did something new today.
giving our observation of the songs that should
have already listened was what we have never done before
the actual practise. and we listened to the praise songs together.
Thank God of the exchange of the preparation we have made.
it's not much of an exchange actually.
it's like jus taking in what out leader told us.
and we jus share to show that we have made effort and
have done well. and also to help us correct our errors.
i guess that's the objectives.

went for dental appointment in the afternoon.
at times, i find that my dentist has no common sense.
he asked me questions when he was working
on my teeth. my mouth was wide open and he was
asking me some ques which i cannot remember.
funny guy.
well perhaps he expected to answer from me.

prayer list!!
-mom's work and health.
-breakthrough 1000.
-my own spritual life.
-my homework.
-one of my fren's problem.
-st.marg's yhope.

i just feel like typing my prayer list here.
if u feel like praying for any of them, please
do so.thanks.

crazy week.
everyday rushing for homework
and i always can't seem to finish them on time.
partly because i have other committment
and also i procrastinated.
second week of 2007 and i didn't keep up with the resolution i made.
i better control myself!!!


i managed well today in class.
not too tired.
not too sian.
jus did my work and paid attention.
i guess it's because today we don't have too many
different subjects and i don't have to switch my mind
from one to the other. or perhaps it's the weekend.
thank God for that.

amelia gave me chocolate today!
and i have yet to try it.
it's from swizeland.
and she gave me a card too.
well.... i shall not tell you the content of it.
and the tiny card is super cute man.
really appreciate this friend of mine.
and seriously, sometimes, she can be rather irritating.
but still, she makes me laugh.

we talked about school rules today during english class.
and sometimes we really detest the school rules and
find the rules and punishments unreasonable.
but i also do believe that we want the school rules
to be get rid of, we have to mature and know what is
acceptable and what is not.
and some of the people in my sch are just not so.
mrs seet, my english teacher, said something that is quite true.
she said that schools that are strict produces better results.
eventhough it is so, i still don't like the rules.

my chocolate!!

oh man.
i feel to stupid now.
he could have received a word from God.
and i didn't do it.
kill me man.
i deserve to die.

celebrated sze min and hannah's brithday.
hanah birthday was late year Nov and now then we celebrate for it.
super late lorh.
btu at least we celebrate la.
P.S. shirley came over our table when we celebrated hannah's and szemin's
birthday. and when we told her hannah's birthday was in nov last yr,
her response was "huh?" or something like that.
can't remember clearly.

today's sermon was veyr very very impactful.
running the race of our life.
never giving up what God calls you to and
God can do whatever we can't do.
we got to trust in him,
put the past behind us and focus in our goal.
i'm just going to persevere on wih my sciences man.
i think i will have a lot of problem doing well in all
of my subjects and i am definitely afraid of failing
and afraid that i won't do well.
but i will just do whatever i can.
and trust in God that i will have enough determination.

anyway, the alter call song was super ministering for me.
here's the lyrics!

I Believe in You
My Jesus, I’m found in You
You’re my Saviour
You choose me before the world
And You called my name

I’ll go with You through the valley
And I’ll soar above
Every mountain
I’ll trust Your Word
Deep within my heart
I will live for You

I know my future is in Your hands
All of my hopes and
Dreams and plans

You gave me strength to live
And faith to succeed
I believe in You
Because You believe.

well well... the second day in school had passed.
tiring day.
want to sleep earlier today.
i had the desire to put in more effort in my work now.
but i'm afraid that i would slack again.
ah!!!!!
i don't to be reminder by Os.
it makes me feel really uncomfortable.
tmr going to national library and popular at bras basar
with amelia tmr.
to buy things and study a bit at the library.
and i want to return my books too.
i'm getting into the monmentum of sch alr.
but not Os.
this year, i got to pray exceptionally more this year than the past yrs.
it is said that we will grow more during tough times.
i had a problem tht always happened to me.
during holiday, my mind is constantly driftly back to God,
or that i'm spending my time with my caregrp people or
something else that is related to the kingdom.
but once i start sch, my mind is focused all the assignments that
i have to hand up, all the things that had been absorbed by me in class.
and God only comes to my head in the morning, in the bus and night.
it's like i totally forgot about God until the end of the day
then suddenly realise God is there.
to fan nao.
so many things to cope with.
):

heyhey!!
first day of the year!!
actually not. it's the 2nd day alr.
but i want to blog about the 1st day.

went to watch night at the museum with my cousin today!
the show is very veyr nice man.
interesting plot. funny dialogue.
excellent characters.
it's even better than charlotte's web!
recommend all youth to watch it.

and i spent a bomb today.
buy popcorn, buy tickets and some other stuff.
i must not spent as much tmr as my caregroup
and i go to mind's cafe man.
i pray that tmr we'll have a fruitful time.

hapy new year!!
went to chijmes for countdown jus now with my mum.
drank bacardi again.
and i vomited.
sigh.
i can't take alcohol at all man.
i shall just drink fruit juice next time.
but it was fun at the countdown party nonetheless.
thank God for that.
and thank God for my mum too.
i know she's very tired, but she still want to spend time
with me and not just go home and have a good night sleep.
i know she's not that kind of person who would celebrate new yr.

hmmm....
i shall share my new yr resolution.
1. control my temper at home and express my anger
in a better way.

2. really focus on all my goals.
i believe i can do it together with God.

3. keep my emotions in check.
try not to show my displeasure at the inappropriate occassion.

yea. that's is what i want to achieve in this new year.
i believe with all my heart that i will grow a lot more this year.
especially this is the year which i am going to tk my O levels.
God will be with me.

x

amelia koh.
amelia tay.
chen xiang.
christabel.
joseph lin.
joyce.
mila.
nicole.
nicolina.
p.s glenn.
puiwah.
sandy.
shiyou.
weiling.
winnie.


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