winnie's birthday yesterday.
oh well, the card i made was too ugly, so i didn't
give it to her. i'll make another one and giver
her another day.
we bought a cake for her thought. haha.
and i taste gddddddd.............

on friday i was so desperate about my
physics that i jus cried out to God
out of my frustration. I just stopped
my physics work and started praying.
But in the end, i was still as frustrated
as i was before i prayed.
Then, i jus carried on my work.
and i can't help felt hopeless at that time.
until yesterday's worship in service.
that was when God spoke to me.
The words and the presense of God
was so assuring that i put my trust fully
in God.
i think it is the first time in my entire
christian life that i trusted God so much.
i don't why i didn't have as much faith as
i have now compared to the pass,
but i thank God for speaking to me.
or else i would still be going through my
exams in anguish.
Thank you Lord.

How can I keep from singing your praise

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And thought the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling
How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing
I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give
I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

hai....
nobody to study with me.
went to take free ben n jerry ice cream jus now.
but no matter how gd the ice cream is,
i'm still very sian.
cause i have a lot of things to study alr
and then somemore nobody study with me.
hai.........
but i still want the free ice cream.
chocolate fudge brownie.....
yum yum.........


Giving out of love.
had tis thought in my mind for a couple of times alr.
do we give out of true love for the person
or because of obligations?
do we give because as christians, we should be
gd? Hence we force ourselves to give with a
unwilling heart, trying to form an gd image
in front of others.
i think sometimes i do.
even when people ask me for simple things,
i force myself to give what they need when
they ask for things from me.
i felt that i should be showing love to the people
and i compel myself to give.
but not only the actions, the heart is very impt
in God's eyes too.
when we don't give wholeheartedly to God,
God would rather we don't give.
i'm not saying that we don't help others
when we don't feel like doing it.
but we should let God's love fill us and then
we can give God's love to others.
need more of God in my life man.
we need the God of love to have love.
Lord, may you change our hearts,
giving out of your love for us
but not out of a unwilling heart.

it's exam period now and i don't think i will
b posting as much now.
cya people!

Big Fish- FFH

Are you in the big fish
Are you sitting in the belly of a world gone mad
Have you turned your back on
His wish His will for your life, have you made Him sad
Do you want to get out of the big fish
Listen to God and follow His plan
And you won't be part of the main dish
He'll spit you out on to dry land

You're one brick short of a load now brother
You're one shot away from a bullseye
You are missing the mark on your spiritual walk
Started walking away now you're sinking -
Into the deep, wake up from the sleep
See your one fry short of a happy meal
You are incomplete by your own deceit
Turned your back, now you're going swimming

You're sinking low how low can you go
So low that you don't know which way to go
To the truth or to the dare?
If you take the dare then you'll be swallowed there
Run to the truth and you will find
That a rescue arrives just in time
To pick you up back on your feet
Obedience is neat.

studied with dear puiwah ytd
and it was super efficient for me.
she's zhao li hai man.
studied for chem test and other
chem topics for Os too.
that 3hrs wasn't like the times
when i studied on my own.
Thank God for motivating me
when i was distracted and tired:)
we had fun eat shilin's chicken too!
haha. ytd i still had a lot of phlegm
but the cough is gone.(yeah!)
and i still go and eat the chicken.
haha. thank God i feel even better today.
i hope i will have a gd time with tammie
and cheryl later before and during service.
puiwah invited them and i'm suppose to help
her out. hehe. cause i use to be a little more
than just hello-friends with tammie and i don't
have any visitors this week again.
hai.....
there's so many things i want and need to do
but i didn't do them. it's always like that for me.
seriously got to be more active alr.
like what mr Anthony always say
"you girls better wake up your idea!"
hahaha.

anyway, i've started to like moles and
QA after yesterday.
cause i realise i can do it!
hahaha.
thanks to my dear shepherd.

i'm finding my way back oh Lord.
when i'm lost, i feel empty without you.
when i don't seek you, i can't find peace,
i can't find love. i'm like the living dead.
with you, i have a joy that i can obtain from
nowhere else. circumstances cease to
overtake me when you fill me with the spirit.
how can i bear to dismiss you out of my mind
when i know full well that i can't live my life
without your presence in me.
your gdness brings me to my knees.
the love you gave cannot be kept within me.
how could i, when ur love is felt deep within us all.
you love us all even when we deny you.
your love endures forever.

i'm coughing like an old man.
ah!!! and i have to go to sch tmr.
i hope i don't cough every 5 min during lesson.
hai... didn't go to sch today.
i bet there are many things for me to catch up.
anyway, wanted to go for cg today at 4pm,
but since i'm coughing like that, i decided not to go.
in case i spead the germs to my caregroup members.
and it was raining too. so i hid at home.
today is a gd break for me.
it's really a day of study without stress.
did my physics and chemistry homework
and revise a bit of last year's social studies.
i like to study like that.
i don't hve the feeling of not being able to
finish studying when ur my test is tmr.
eventhough my exams are near, i don't feel
very stress. which can a gd thing or a bad thing for me.
hai... i'm getting a bit complacent.
so dead.

anyway, i did 2 devotions from the connect bklet
today cause i didn't do it yeterday.
it made me feel a but guilty of what i did and
what i didn't do.
it's a long way for me from being a world class christian.
fuling the great commission and commandment.
i think i've been worrying too much abt my own spiritual life.
i've neglected some of the people ard me.
i shall go and do some reflections!!
haha.

ah........ i'm sick now.
the phlegm is so irritating in my throat.
i had pretty bad sore throat for the pass two days
and thank God it's gone.
but now, cough has visited me and my voice isn't very sweet.
crap, i want to get a MC so i can rest and don't go to sch tmr.
however, my mum is very smart.
she tried to convince me that i have to go to sch everyday
so that i can make full use of the day God has made
and i can learn new things.
and she said since i always go to church without fail,
i should go to sch too.
now she's using God to control me.
infutrating man.
oh, and one more sickening thing,
i can't sing my fav songs now:(

i read this article on this week's issue of newsweek.
it really interest me.
it's titled " The God Debate."
it's a article abt the reality of God.
and there's a convo between Rick Warren (pastor)
and Sam Harris(atheist) which is quite cool.
read it if u have a chance.

my saviour
the glorious one
my redeemer
living in my heart
now and forever
your kingdom come
oh Jesus son of God.

sound was tiring but i love it!
didn't screw up much of it but
i still need improvement.
i aspire to be a sound leader!!
but i'm having some problems
in balancing sound with cg now.
not so much with time but my passion.
i have more joy serving i sound.
i have nothing against my cg
and i love my cg a lot. just that
i am always very pek chek over my
sheep. hai.....
i realise the importance of balancing cg,
sound and sch work now.
cause when we have a balanced life,
God is pleased.
oh man, i need more perseverance.
i don't want to let go, but my heart
feel so choked up.
ok, i shall listen to my leaders.
hai..... dying alr.
but gd thing God was there when i
cldn't tk it anymore.
felt better after that break down.
Thank God.

i don't know why. When i read this person's blog, the words just touches me and i started crying.
maybe i becuase i already felt like crying and the words triggered my heart. i think cried cause i am frustrated with many things. and when the words came to live and spoke to me, i was touched by God. and i have decided not to do it already. cause it defeats the whole perpose eventhough i'm suppose to do it. don't ask my what is it. cause if i can tell u, i would have typed it here. only God and i know, at least for now. there is like, no one i can really really share my things with besides God. i cannot give my trust to people who are rather close to me now cause i just don't want to share with them. i feel that they won't understand or identify with me. i would very much love to build up relationships with people whom i am not that close with yet. but i think some ppl are reluctant to or that they don't have time. or perhaps it's wierd for me to go closer to them. i don't know. for now, i'll just see how things change for me.

for the past 2 days,
i've been seeing the moon in
the dark cloudy sky as i'm on my way to school.
it's so clear, so stunning and so intimate that wish
i could take a brieft halt to admire it and calm myself down from
my time-chasing journey to the bus stop.
but i couldn't cause i would then miss my bus if i had done that.
and so i jus quicken my steps for me to be on time
but for every few metres that i cover, i would look up and
look at its brightness.
then i wld carry on with my way.
i love to look at things of the nature which shows the splendor
of the creation if God.
that's y i can jus simply sit at the seaside, look out to the sea
and feel the breeze for the entire day without feeling bored.
and that's y i like physical geography.
I love to see the vastness of what God has created.
anyway, despite the fact that i had speed up,
i still missed my bus consecutively for 2 days.
oh well.....

At the cross

Oh Lord you search me
You know my way
even when i fail you
i know you love me
your holy presence
surrounding me
in every season
i know you love me
i know you love me
at the cross i bow my knees
where your blood was shed for me
there's no greater love than this
you have overcome the grave
your glory fills the highest place
what can separate me now
you go before me
and shield my way
your hand upholds me
i know you love me
you tore the veil
you made a way
when u say that "it is done"
and when the earth fades
falls from my eyes
you stand before me
i know you love me
i know you love me

I know u are guiding me.
with you, i am assured.
when i'm depressed over my life
you are there to pick me up with your grace again
and say:"Let's try again."
when i'm in the wrong,
you correct me with your
wisedom and beautiful voice .
At times, i don't sense your presence
when i need to grow but i'm never
out of your sight.
No flawless love was there for me
except you oh Lord.
you created me to worship you
and with my life,
i thee worship.

whee!!
1st shepherding with Christabel today.
on april fool's day.
haha.
a bit worried before i met her but after that
we got along pretty well.
go shopping together somemore.
haha.
Thank God.
and i found out what i will teach her alr.
it's always a joy to take care of God's people,
knowing that u can change their lives when they
are not doing well.
it's even more fulfilling when they eventually grow
to be man or women of God.
i tell you..... the joy is almost pass bearing.
it's a privilege to serve God.

something which shirley said changed my attitude
towards certain things.
Christians are not anymore better ot superior than
non believer. but the difference is that we are
FORGIVEN.
This made me even more convicted about wanting to change
my ways. my thoughts of judgement.
i got to get this right man.

x

amelia koh.
amelia tay.
chen xiang.
christabel.
joseph lin.
joyce.
mila.
nicole.
nicolina.
p.s glenn.
puiwah.
sandy.
shiyou.
weiling.
winnie.


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